Failure

Okay this is going to be a different post. But I just feel like I need to get this out somewhere.

Do you ever feel like a failure at somethings. I feel like a failure as a mother. I don't feel like I have done a very good job at raising my boys. Maybe I was to wrap up in my own world. Maybe I had them to young. My older boys can not even ride a bike nor do they want to even try. They just learn to tie there shoes about a year ago and that is because I was told them they should be able to tie there shoes. We were at my brother's house tonight for dinner and Justin has no manners. He was chewing with his mouth open. Talking with his mouth open. He had his feet up on the chair. I was so embarrassed. I thought to myself that I have never taught them any manners. Sure Justin says please and thank you. That is great. But I know he should be doing more. I was also thinking that I still make their plates for dinner. I get the plate and put the food on it. I even cut up the meat for them. I mean come on Justin is 9. I don't want to be cutting up his meat for the rest of his life. Justin also can not button is pants. I know this might have to do with the things that is wrong with him. But he does not even try. He will pull his pants up without unbottoning them. I know some pants he has he can do this. But others are not. He will have his underwear all at the top of his pants. I want my boys to do things on there own. But yet again I have not taught them to do it either.